Time to come clean

Ok so for a while there I didn't want to post about my weight gain I was disappointed in the way the band hasn't worked the way I thought it should work but I think I haven't done my best to work with it either. I know I need a fill but I'm trying to work with what I have. Ok so in the last month I had gained 6 lbs! For the Holiday Challenge I sent in the horrible 264.4lbs I couldn't believe it :( . But I've worked my booty off since then, I've watched what I eat, portion control and started hitting the gym. I decided not to weigh myself until this morning. I'm at 258.2! Now this is morning weight which will vary from evening weight but I'm hoping I'm at least at 258-259. I don't know if how successful I'll be next week since it is a very busy school week, which means less time at the gym, but my goal before my next fill December 09 is to be at least at 249 I want to be out of the 250s and by New Year's I want to be in the 230s will this happen? I don't know but I sure can try!

Holiday Challenge

It's official I've paid and joined the holiday challenge! I've been thinking about it for a while saying maybe I shouldn't do this...then I thought why not? Is there a negative? No!!! Just me FINALLY being a little more responsible about what I eat and how much I exercise! So I am officially going the gym on Saturday and my first work out will be Monday! I will kick this challenge in the butt for myself :) Only cheating days I'm giving myself is Thanksgiving and the day after LEFT OVERS YUMMO!!! And then back on that bad boy! I'm hoping by my next fill WHICH I SO NEED, I'll be down at least 20 lbs! Good Luck all of you who are on the challenge!

Horrible feeling!

I had my first stuck episode! It was awful! I don't know why I thought that it would be a good idea to have a piece SMALL piece of a mozarella stick! There I am in the middle of the restaurant trying to gracefully to make my way to the bathroom as I hiccup all the way there. I was slimmed into the trash can before making it into the bathroom it took about 5 mins for it to come up and I swore to myself never to let that happen again! Come Saturday morning my nieces were over for a sleep over and I made them breakfast burritos, well I thought I'll just have a small taste of one....WRONG! Stuck again! It only took about a minute for it to come up but it felt awful. I know it won't be my last, I know I'll have to learn the hard way what I can and cannot eat, but I know it will be worth it.

My fill isn't doing so well for me I need more restriction. Mornings are perfect I'm tighter and feel restriction so they tend to go well for me. Come noon time no restriction I can eat a little less than before but not enough to make a difference, same for dinner. I don't know if to call and try to get my Dec. 07 appointment moved up or try to work with this MINIMAL restriction for the next month and a half. Ok well I'm off to my part time work :( I can't wait to find something new SOON! Adios :)

My first fill!

Life has been hectic! Although now, not by choice, I'll have more time on my hands. My hours have been cut at work due to the economy from full time to part time (20hrs) and my benefits were cut too! I'm very very very lucky that my insurance paid for the surgery and all the follow ups up front so I have free fills (except for a $20.00 co-pay) for an entire year! Hopefully by then I'll have be full time (somewhere else!) and have full benefits again. I've thought about it though and think next month I'll be picking up COBRA...I don't think its in my best interest and safety 2 months after surgery not to have insurance. But that will be almost one of my pay checks! :(

Well on to better news, I had my first fill yesterday!!! I was worried about how it would go, plus waiting with my blouse up on my back for the doctor to come in for 45 MINUTES did not help my nerves! It went well he made me do the water test which freaked me out when I felt like I couldn't swallow the water...I hope I never have that feeling except during fills! I believe I have 4cc in the band and he said that by my appointment Dec. 7 he expects me to be about 30 lbs down....I hope so! So far so good, I was really really tight this morning but it seems to have opened up a bit and almost finished my breakfast shake... 2 1/2 hrs later :/ Is this normal? I've read on some blogs that they tend to be tight in the morning so I hope that's what I'm experiencing. Next week I plan to start going to the gym since I've been cleared to exercise goodbye 258! I'll try to do a better job of coming back and giving updates, I read all the blogs and they help me out tremendously, I hope I can help others too!

I'm Back!

Well what can I say the surgery went great! I was very surprised I felt no pain, really no pain at all! At night I needed some tylenol for some soreness, but nothing else. The next day was a little different I had a horrible neck cramp from laying on my hospital bed at an angel so although I went home I could hardly move. The last few days have flown by and I've been able to recover well. I've lost a total of 6 lbs after the surgery and I'm not surprised the liquids have been a little hard to get down...did you all experience the same tightness? I'm starving though so I don't know how normal that is. Well I have to get back to working on my paper and presentation for class tomorrow I'll give more of an official update on weight and how I'm doing after my post-op appointment on Tuesday! Thanks for all the advise and support!

Still Here!

Hello Everyone!

I'm still here! Its just been so crazy around here I feel like I haven't had time to breath, also there wasn't much news :( That all stops...now :) Ok so...the last two months have been a yo yo with my weight. After my cousin's wedding WHICH WAS AMAZING! I gained a couple pounds...5! It was the first time I had been in my home town and I missed the food so much :) and when I came back it was hard to get back into the protein diet routine. I get this little voice inside of me that says "well you already cheated on _____ you should just cheat today" I hate hate that lil voice! Well I maintained the weight gain through out July.

Starting in August I knew that by my pre op appointment they wanted to see a difference in weight loss I had weighed in at 277lbs the last time I was at the office so I was only down about 6-7 lbs I know they expect double digits PLUS first and foremost I want to be as healthy as I can be for the surgery. I was back on the protein diet! So far I am at 262-263lbs it changes from day to day, but at my pre op I weighed in at 263 so that's the weight I'm posting. It was really scary yesterday...I can't believe in 4 days I will be getting ready for surgery they have me scheduled for 9:00 a.m. so I did early check in yesterday after the pre op. It seems so real now!

OBVIOUSLY I'm a little scared, but really excited at the same time! Sunday is the start of the clear liquid diet! Any recommendations out there I know about the broths anything else that helped you all with the hunger pains? I have class on Monday night and I don't want to be sitting there with a noisey tummy, especially when I have an oral presentation! Graduate school has been killer and working full time isn't helping I'm really really thinking about asking my employer to go part time. Sorry for rambling but my brain is such a scatter! I'll be going shopping tomorrow for food essentials for the liquid diet and the post op liquid diet so any recommendations would be greatly appreciated!

I'll post after the surgery let y'all know how it all went! (my texas twang sorry!)

Wow!

Ok well I'm down two more pounds in less than a week...I don't think I'll hit my goal of 265 by the wedding day since I'll be in my home town which means so much bad food I'll probably gain two or three pounds after this wedding weekend! Oh well! But on a great note I went for my bridesmaid dress fitting on saturday and they had to bring the dress in by 4 inches! Can you believe it! I put the dress on and asked my sister to zip it up, she walked away and I said to her "I asked you to zip it up!" and she said wait for it wait for it lol "It is! It doesn't fit you its way too big!" Can you believe it they measured me and I lost 5 inches in my Boobie area and I lost 2 inches on my waist and 1 inch off my bootie! The seamstress told me that I was one of the only bridesmaids she has seen loose this much weight, usually its the brides who loose the weight. I was so happy! Again it makes me dream about what it will be like 2 months, and then 6 months and then a year! I think I might hit my goal way before I expect too. I was shooting for being 100 lbs down from my starting weight within a year, but I'm already almost 20lbs with no band! Oh and I just received my first grade from graduate school.... A! Oh yeah lol it was a hard course and I expect it to get much harder, but I'm off to a good start! Well I'm going to get back to work! So much to do before my trip! AHHHH!