Wow!

Ok well I'm down two more pounds in less than a week...I don't think I'll hit my goal of 265 by the wedding day since I'll be in my home town which means so much bad food I'll probably gain two or three pounds after this wedding weekend! Oh well! But on a great note I went for my bridesmaid dress fitting on saturday and they had to bring the dress in by 4 inches! Can you believe it! I put the dress on and asked my sister to zip it up, she walked away and I said to her "I asked you to zip it up!" and she said wait for it wait for it lol "It is! It doesn't fit you its way too big!" Can you believe it they measured me and I lost 5 inches in my Boobie area and I lost 2 inches on my waist and 1 inch off my bootie! The seamstress told me that I was one of the only bridesmaids she has seen loose this much weight, usually its the brides who loose the weight. I was so happy! Again it makes me dream about what it will be like 2 months, and then 6 months and then a year! I think I might hit my goal way before I expect too. I was shooting for being 100 lbs down from my starting weight within a year, but I'm already almost 20lbs with no band! Oh and I just received my first grade from graduate school.... A! Oh yeah lol it was a hard course and I expect it to get much harder, but I'm off to a good start! Well I'm going to get back to work! So much to do before my trip! AHHHH!

Something is better than nothing!

Well I dropped 4lbs in two weeks. I think that's pretty good taking into consideration I've been making very bad decisions on meals when it comes to the weekend. I can't wait until I have the band so I have restriction and not feel so hungry! Now I must start watching my intake and working out hard as my cousin's wedding is next Saturday I want to drop another 2 or 3 lbs by next week so that the dress will fit a little loose. I have my fitting tomorrow and I hope it fits! I was measured when I was 16lbs heavier so I hope that makes a difference in the dress. It would be great to be 20lbs down from where I was the last time my cousin saw me. She lives in New York, I live in California and her wedding is in our hometown El Paso, TX. She saw me at my heaviest 285lbs (I don't think I've mentioned my weight here before...WEIRD) and now I'm at 269lbs. I can't help but be very excited about the band and my future weightloss, I keep thinking if I can have this will power now with no help IMAGINE what I can achieve when I have the surgery! I hope by my surgery date AUGUST 24TH I will be in the 250 range whether it be high or low 250's it doesnt matter. I just think starting off at 250 gets me that much closer to being 199 by New Year's! Have a great weekend everyone!

Surgery Date!

I HAVE MY SURGERY DATE! August 24th! I should be upset that its so far away, but I'm just happy! Happy that this life long battle with no assistance is coming to an end! Plus the more I thought about it the better the day sounded. I am extremly busy at work and it will slow down around the first week of August, I'm getting used to going to graduate school full time and working full time so by August I should be better adjusted and I'm my cousin's maid of honor for her wedding this summer so I was worried the surgery would come right before or during the wedding. Bummer that the surgery is a week after my birthday, but its just a late birthday present. My doctor said I could get off the protein diet and start it again July 12th (1 month before my pre-op appointment), but I decided I'm going to stick to it, but cheat a lil. The shakes fill me up for breakfast and lunch, and dinner I'm getting used to eating a smaller meal. But I'm so going to get in some bad carbs here and there before July 12th and maybe a margarita or two :). My goal for my August pre-op date is to be 15lbs lighter than I am today...I might only be 10lbs, but you never know!

I have no life :(

I didn't even realize it had been close to a month since I had posted on here! I've been so busy with school that I don't even remember to sleep :) Well if you see by my ticker I have lost 12 lbs in 3 weeks! It has not been easy! This protein diet my doctor has me on is KILLER! I'm actually not as hungry as I was before, but it is the worst between lunch and dinner! It's like my tummy knows that it is going to be fed real food at 6 and it wants it NOW! I haven't been great with the diet either I might have lost an extra 3 or 4 lbs if I had been. I still eat cheese and still have dressings on my salads which are not recommended, but hey either than that I think I'm doing pretty good! Did your doctors have you on a protein diet 4 - 6 weeks before surgery? On all of the blogs that I read I haven't come across somebody who has...

My doctor has let me know I have my pre op appointment on June 18th and I was told the surgery is within 2 weeks of that appointment so let's cross our fingers I'll be celebrating 4th of July with my band. I'm assuming and hoping by the surgery date I'll be down another 10-15 lbs I'm trying to work to getting as low on the scale as possible so when I have to deal with post op and bandster "hell" I don't gain too much!

Now on too the boring stuff. I'm 3 weeks into my first graduate class and boy is it demanding! I was not prepared for the amount of reading I have to do for class... Just this week I had to read close too 300 pages, plus write a discussion question, take a test for class online and finally write a 5-7 page paper before tuesday next week! Yup, no memorial weekend for me :( I hope you guys have a better weekend than me :) be safe!

Day One :(

Ok today is Day One of the pre-op diet! I don't know how some of you did it, but I want to go eat a whole pizza after I get off of work! lol Seriously those protein shakes are like water. I'm so excited for half a chicken breast and veggies tonight!

I know I have great will power, but I dont know if I can handle this. I was going to try to avoid doing the mozarella stick snack and or turkey, but I think I'm going to need it! Do y'all recommend some good protein shakes I feel like the chocolate is going to get to me really quickly!

OH MY!!!!!

Guess what? Guess what? Guess what? My surgery has been approved!!! I just received the phone call!!! Oh my I felt really silly crying at work after I found out, but I think you guys will understand just how I feel! My eyes are watery again...but of pure joy and happiness!

Oh and one more thing...Monday when I arrived from my trip...I received a phone call from school I have been accepted into their gradute program!!!!! I don't know how or why everything is falling into place, but I'm so excited right now!!!! Off to lunch to celebrate with my two co-workers lol :)

Waiting!!!!

I haven't posted here in a couple of days put there isn't really much news right not since everything is on hold and I'm waiting! Waiting for the insurance to HOPEFULLY approve the surgery and waiting to see if I've been accepted into graduate school! I'm so worried about everything that I can't sleep very well the last few weeks :(. I love sleep need 8 hours or I'm a cranky cranky person :( and yet I've on been getting about 4 to 5 hours of sleep a night even on weekends! Ahhhh! I tell myself everything will work out in the end and to have faith, but sometimes its hard to believe that maybe this time things will work just the way I plan them too.

On to better things I leave to San Antonio, TX on Tuesday!!! It's my yearly trip to my beautiful city that I hope to move back to one day! And for the first time in 3 years I'll be staying for 7 whole days!!! My sister and her friend are coming down with me since they both just turned 21 and want to hang with the pros for a couple days and see what partying is really about lol! Kidding....not really...sort of. I have no free time to relax I am literally booked every day and I think I overbooked some days! Its very hard when you have so many friends living in one place you can't really just see some of them or the others get their feelings hurt, I learned that lesson the hard way from the first visit. The most exciting thing is spending time with my 5 closest friends, we went through some tough times together! College was a big wake up call to a lot of us who moved far away from our parents. We grew up very quickly and learned to lean on each other in order to survive. Like I tell them often, which I know the get tired of hearing :), I would not have made it without them, they were my shoulder to cry, the people that made me laugh until i cried, they are my family and without them in my life on a daily basis I feel a lil empty :(. I love those girls! I better stop watery eyes, I have to save it for the tearful goodbyes and see you soons!

FIESTA!!!! Yup that's why I decided next week for my trip...How do I explain fiesta? San Antonio literally shuts down the city to party for one whole week...I'm not kidding most businesses, especially in the downtown area, close at noon all week! They close the streets down and party party party!!! Food SO BAD FOR YOU but oh so good! Chicken on a stick!!!!!! AHHH Booze, booze and more booze! Beer, MARGARITAS, hurricanes, Sangria, wine, and anything else you can think of is sold at every other booth in the city! I'm so excited! And I know my sister will love it! I will make a San Antonian of her you wait and see! (I'll post another day about my plan to force all my family to move at least one hour from San Antonio so I dont miss anyone! :) )

Well I'll stop my rambling now. According to the doctor's office I should have an answer from the insurance by the time I get back from my trip. And that should also be around the same time that I get either approved or denied from Graduate School! Its going to be an emotional end of the month, regardless if the news is good or bad, or both. Wish me luck!